Hello. I cut my hair. It's not much of a difference so i'll just leave it at that.
just curious. Who think Mischa Barton is gay? I think so.
Don't just say that she's deffo straight because i'm the "dirty, horny, disgusting, clueless lesbian who is always fantasizing about her" which i am obviously not. I mean, She's like, gay. I dunno how to explain. But she's just weird la. Ahya. She's soooooo gay!
Hello Hi ho!
I think i'm going to get a haircut today.
I was rocking the sounds man! Anyway, I guess i'm gonna get a haircut so, my hair's gonna change. Probably. My fringe sucks. BOOOOOOO! ehehe.
I want to change my blog template. But i'm too lazy la.
Anyway, i had a horrible dream this afternoon.
I dreamt that i took a nap and i woke up late.
i had to be at the airport to send Haruka off.
then i was like, fuck! then i was asking why nobody wake me up
then they said i was sleeping. then i kept calling for a cab but my phone was zonked.
then i kinda realized i was dreaming. then i woke up. then i looked around.
Shoot. i'm so gay.
btw, Joakim Gomez CANNOT sing.
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I've got a hopeless crush, maybe that don't mean much to you.
Right now my fringe is super thick. When i push to my forehead. It bounces up. It's that cheebye Chua Si Hui's fault la. But i still love her all the same because she is the coolest chao ah lian i know! :D
( i'm only saying this because i want to protect myself or she will send her whole gang against me! eeks! )so yeah, i was kinda of emo about 15 minutes ago because my dad talked about haruka and he was giving a "inspirational" talk and the laptop was playing Eve is the apple of my eye. I just started tearing. I really really do miss them. Then i saw Moe's email. I cried even more.
Sometimes, it's just so unfair. However, we don't have a choice and we never see it coming or sometimes we do; but we just ignore it.
Up till now since i first started blogging. I've written 850 posts. I did include the diaryland one which would probaly equate to almost, 900?
Well, that's what i think.
Anyway, school felt weird. No Haruka to walk around with and no one to fetch at 9.30. School was boring and at many times, i had the urge to just plonk my head on the table and snoooooze. But, I didn't. I don't even know why. Geography was crappy and cold.
After school we called Haruka with my mobile phone. So cute, lor. Moshi moshi here and there. a lil bit of shouting and haruka was on the phone. we had a brief conversation and we only heard giggles and ok. So yeah. It sure beats nothing at all.
After school we went went to NYDC. we walked around town, fought with my sister on the phone. Looked around at shoes, shoes and more shoes. Which leaves me at, which shoe do i bloody want!
We got special mention on Haruka's blog! :D I do hope she comes by mine. It would be extremely sweet of her. EH HEHE.
I feel so fleshy. :
I just want something, something for nothing.I don't know i just had so many agonizing moments today.
Just thinking bout Haruka. at dinner and at tea. Weird huh.
What an emotional weekend, makes me feel like giving school a miss tomorrow. I feel empty. I have another email to compose. I need prolly an hour to write it. :(
& those 3 words were all i ever wanted to hear.
Is this what you see?
Hello,
The morning felt so weird cos there wasn't that person sitting next to me.
There wasn't someone who nibbled on her food so slowly, we sometimes had to hurry her.
There wasn't that person who laughed at something i did.
There wasn't a weird japanese induced conversation.
I didnt feel the rush or need to get out of bed.
There wasn't a place we had to get to in time.
There wasn't someone who come knocking on the door to use the toilet.
There wasn't the nice pantene smell or big big luggage in the study room anymore!
:(She's gone back to Japan and probably is resting in her Japanese home.
I miss her very very much.
This feeling sucks man.
I feel like crying allover again.
:(PLUSplus! she checked her mail before she left for Japan. So no effect anymore luh.
:(& ALL the onabe's like Maki lor!
Sigh, but this is all about Haruka. Dear me, i feel so sad. I miss them and i wrote them emails.
My sent messages shows nothing. Does that mean it didnt get sent? But everyone seems to have gotten the mails i sent over the pass hmmm, 2-3 weeks. Geeez. We will just see. I'll just have to write more if they don't reply.
:(
Bloody hell, i have 12 blogs.
I'm tired. I'm damn bloody vulgar la. Ah fuck la.
Anyway, the Jep girls left today. :(
I totally bawled my eyes out! Geeeez. Was super sad la. If i took a video of whatever went on, I swear you would cry if you watched it too. :(
I got to hug Maki and Haruka kept prodding my fats. :( HENTAI!
Eh, their plane left at about, 10.45pm. Now is 2.30am It's been a good 4 hours on the plane. I suppose they must be sleeping now. I wonder what are they thinking off. Shoot. I'm so dreamy.
I'm quite tired now.
This week passed so incredibly fast.
:(
:(
I haven't been blogging so often cos i really dont have the time and energy.
I'm really tired. I'm right now sitting in front of my computer with my eyes closing and opening.
Tomorrow we are going to have the farewell party and it's gonna be super sad.
I'm gonna take their emails tomorrow so that i can send an email to them.
I can't picture myself writing letters, rather giving them my hand-written letters which is like,
Euuurgh. I think i'll just break down writing all the damn letters.
The most is i would hand-write one for Haruka. But, i dunno if i can do it.
It's so fucking embarassing.
I messaged Ravinder, :(. and she called me back, then i called her back. Then i started crying.
Then i hid behind my dictionary and cried while talking to Ravinder.
And Maki was like,
nande? Geeez. I bet she thought i was retarded cos i threw my dictionary on to the ground. Man, this sucks. :(
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Maki is the super super pretty one! :D :D <3 <3
Haruka is my guest! :)
I have this fear.
It's eating me alive.
It's driving me insane.
:(
This feeling sucks.
Man. i feel damn sad that i can't do flag day.
I miss _.i'm scared of marie-anne. thank god i dont have to be with her.
But poor ferlai. I think she hates me now. I wonder what she likes, I shall buy her candy!
:D HAHA.
Ahya, the girl is coming. I think i'm gonna suck and my house is so dteh and my father is soooo sarcastic. OMG. sighh! help me!
Bryan's coming over. I wanted to go over. then i realized that _. so yeah. seeya!
Hello, Rafael Nadal is on tv now. Hmmm, i cant get to sleep. I'm very anxious about tomorrow. I need to sort out my room and everything. I might not be able to support ferlai. Ugh. how...... Anyway Kelly told me something that wanru said. and it's damn funny. about my japanese guest and her being topless. Right, Wonderful. This is toooooooo much. School's beeen ok. i passed math and accounts! Double yay! So yeah, wish me luck for the next week! :D
I'm watching Jessica Simpson's Public Affair music video. And i saw Eva Longoria. I was like OMG! Then i wanted to blog so i typed,
http://evalongoria.comHaha. I feel really ready for tomorrow's ca. But i can't be to cocky cos i might forget tomorrow. :\
They come they go.
Thank god i've got you.
i dunno why, but i feel like doing this shout out cause, i thought.
Ravinder, Maryanne, Tanya, Mabel, Ziping, Ailin, Rene, Joyceh, Jeanette, Gehui, Zenn & Fangzi.
( in no merit order whatsoever )
Somehow, you guys were there for me when i was at my lowest.
Although some of us dont talk much anymore. I still feel that you guys are my good friends.
I don't think i could have pulled through without ya'll.
Special Mention goes to Tanya, Ziping and Rene. <3 you so much, that you couldn't possibly measure.
I have a sudden fascination with the word, Ghettofabulous, It's not really in the dictionary. But it's a combination of 2 words. ACK. whatever. There's nothing nice to listen. I dont feel like doing anything. NOTHING NICE. CAN YOU IMAGINE!? I'M SO FUCKING DEPRIVED OF GOOD MUSIC. GIVE ME THE FAINT!
I'm fighting for something i already lost;
You know you are so selfish. You are so so so selfish.
Just suck up your bloody pride.
So selfish. So undeserving.
It's so silly of me to even try.
D-e-t-e-r-m-i-n-a-t-i-o-n. even you can do it.i'm just quoting my dad cos he is quite inspiring ya know.
What he says just makes me feel good.
In the material world. Nobody cares about your education. They just care about the $$$.
Somehow i feel like i'll be a flop in future. I talked to Shannon. She did encourage me
and gave me advice on my future. She worked on her strengths and became a mechanical engineer. She hated it after a few years and now she's a director for a company called polyvision. She's a director that makes her exactly the same is postion as my dad or maybe higher. she's only 34 for crying out loud and she's had already 3 BMWs and they all got bigger and louder. hahaha. she's bought 3 different houses already. Can you imagine.
I've come to point where i'm starting to question what am i doing in life and what do i want in life. A part of me wants to succeed at something i like to do and other part of me is telling me to sleep at 4 and wake up at 1 or rather just bum around. I don't want to have hopeless future and struggle with a salary of $2000 month. I consider myself living the high-life. ( I really feel that way la. i want what get what leh. ) I don't think i would survive earning so little in future.
Shannon says i shouldn't think so much and that i should just concentrate on my studies. When the time comes then i will naturally figure out what i'm gonna be stuck with for life.
You may think that i do not care about my studies at all. But it's always playing at the back of my head. Sometimes it does tear me apart. I really don't want to end up living on just $2000 a month. It's a pity because sometimes i really can't study. I try to pull up my socks but it just keeps slipping down. Maybe it's the
determination.One more thing i must note is, I MISS YOU CHEW FANGZI. as in really really miss you. It's like you don't talk to me anymore. Or rather you dont want to talk to me anymore. Not that i like you or anything la but i reallly reallly your stupid corny smile and your corny lame jokes which you think is very funny but isn't but i still laugh anyway. Sigh.
Hello.
I've removed the player cos i kinda find it annoying.
And i am annoyed with the person mainly cos i think she's a poser.
But generally she's not a bad person from my point of view.
She just seems to be trying too hard.
CA is just next week. The japanese girl is also coming next week.
I have a slight problem. We don't have anything in common.
She has a dog, i have a dog and we couldnt possibly be talking about dogs the whole week right.
I feel extremely nervous about this exchange programme because my house is so shabby.
And i feel that i would not be as competent a host as should be.
I should stop ranting and raving and just try my fucking best right.
So, fuck ya'll! Love!
I feel like shitting. Just a thought.
Anyway, I'm really sorry for the last post which was huge!
I don't know what happened and i was really happy.
Sorry to Chelsy cos she told me and sorry to everyone else who did see it.
Uhmmm. Bowling today. I'm v proud of the results. yup. Yimei wants to prove that the normal people don't suck. Alrighteys. We don't. :D
Alright, imma gonna go.
*HYPERVENTILATES*OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGSHE'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGI'M GONNA DIE OF HER CUTENESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!
<3
Basically, my laptop fizzled out and i'm using my momma's. I want a macbook cos it's damn cool and there's like some rebate so i'll get a free iPod nano which is quite a good deal cos i'm going crazy without a bloody mp3 player. hmmmm. Yup. alright. seeya.
I went for a 2 hour car ride last night and i missed Everybody Hates Chris. :(
bye.
Hello.
Tomorrow's national day. I don't feel like going to school.
My knee hurts really badly right now. I dunno why.
I want to study, i really really want to study. But i can't get down to it.
It like doesnt come to me that easily. I'll just end up sleeping.
I don't want to go school tomorrow so that i can
sleepstudy.
Hmmmm.
So school is cool. The japanese girls are coming soon. Really excited.
Am a bit upset over some stuff.
chee ka ahh ahh
So yeah, hmmm... I have a lot of preparations for CA and the JEP.
Fuck! forgot to check my mail!
bye. NYET.
i forgot i have to send my shirt back cos it's got weird oil stains. :(
Byeeee
I was happy about something about 10 minutes ago.
Now i read something and i'm sad. UGH.
YOU SHUT UP!ooooooooooomg! i'm soooooooooo happy!
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
ASK ME WHY!
Hello.
i woke up at like 5pm today.
Now i feel like i got punched on my left eye.
I'm tired.
i want the new samsung d900 or that ultra slim weird phone.
ehehe. :)
You know today is like Tanya's birthday.
We ate at lau pa sat. then we later went to drink.
Fangzi and shane left. :(
I drank too much, i told ravinder and mabel and claudia that i liked fangzi.
They gave me a stunned look. And i was like, joking!
i threw away 18sticks of SKL cherry.
Cos it was like lao hong. and i think it sucked.
ugh. bye bye.
I forgot to add,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA CHIA!happy birthday yo! :D You're like frigging 16 already la! i'm still waiting!
Hope we get to go out again!!
<3
and,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYA TAN!
FRIGGING 17! ON AHH! :D 1 MORE YEAR AND YOU'RE LEGAL TO SMOKE, DRINK AND CLUB! NOT LIKE YOU DO IT LA. BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN LA!
Hello.
I need a haircut. ermmm. I think Julian Hee is hell disgusting. Super disgusting. I really really cannot stand him. RAVINDER DO YOU HEAR ME!? JULIAN HEE SUCKS. He's so eeeeeeeeyer.
I think Rui En is cute. :D HEHEHE.
I find
Gemma ward extremely, extremely attractive as i do Mischa Barton, Alessandro Ambrosio, Natalie Portman, Keira Knightley, Anne Hathaway, Clemence Poesy, etc... etc... etc...
But yes, I was just surfing around. So yeah.
Anyway, i'm gonna watch Havoc again, But minus the horrible scenes. Well up the Anne Hathaway and Bijou Phillips part.
<3
Natalie Portman is cute. :)
She laughs funny too.
I like Inside the actor's studio.
I've a few pimples which are driving me nuts. Geez.
btw, my mother decided to give the desktop away and we are left with one laptop.
She said she will
lend us money to buy a new laptop. :(
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